Evidence

What could be worse than seeing the guy you thought was the one be with someone else? Being hurt and not finding the right reasons to get mad-- getting mad cause this person he has his arms wrapped around can never be you. Getting mad only to later break down into the most raw and basic state cause you blew your chances of being that person he says goodnight to.

Can't say I didn't see this one coming cause I always had a gut feeling you'd be merciless once you've decided to show who's boss. After all, your pride did always came before me.

I feel nothing but disgust. Disgust for ever thinking about settling with someone like you, disgust for going after you even when it already hurt and disgust for thinking that we could always try again when you already had someone you were looking forward to see everyday.

I should've kept my guard up. I shouldn't have let you through the easy way just cause I thought you'd be different. That's all how it starts, does it? You come in all good intentions and slowly pry on my weaknesses only to later hold them against me. 

But I couldn't thank you enough. For holding up the trigger when you're the only person I'd willingly take a bullet for. Thank you for putting me at my highest and for showing me how hard a fall could really be. 

Never will I see anyone else's good again. I will always end up thinking otherwise now. Why? Its not because I'm afraid but its because I feel ashamed to let anyone see how much damaged you've caused and how I still dwell on the sharp edges of whatever's left in me.